Whos skin

I bought a book on a whim-
One of those weeks i had two jobs
Too much money
And a restless mind
Never stopping-
Brainless, mindless shopping
Eighteen rabbit soft dishtowels,
Twenty one colors of fine glitter,
Two new dresses i only wore once,
Things i don't know the purpose of
The why.
Whos skin am i trying to fit in?
The clearance sticker
stayed on the front cover for weeks
5.99 it said
Working two jobs
Exhausted now
Filled with guilt
Gluttony, sloth
Getting fatter
I tell myself i have two jobs
Only went to the second one
One day for two hours
Supposted to be there four for 3
Guilt
Guilt for not feeling guilty enough
Shopping again
Whos skin?